Mom knows (some of the) best

Since I have grown up around so many strong females in my family, I have always felt like I needed to take on that role as well, the role of a strong, independent, sacrificial woman. The men in my family have almost always been passive, quiet, meek, unable to express themselves clearly, the stereotypical passive…

Faith… and reason?

I remember sitting on the top bunk with Danielle on the Mexico mission trip discussing our faith and how to make sense of it. Surrounded by a “charismatic” community, we both couldn’t help but feel conflicted: yes, it’s true that God is supernatural, so there are things that we won’t understand, but should that mean…

Lament

I’m Mary and I’m Martha all at the same time I’m sitting at His feet and yet I’m dying to be recognized I am a picture of contentment and I am dissatisfied Why is it easy to work but hard to rest sometimes How long, how long until I’m home? I’m so tired, so tired…

The One who lives and loves

Because He lives, I can face tomorrow Because He lives, all fear is gone Because I know He holds the future And life is worth the living just because He lives I’ve had to come to terms with a lot of scars and wounds in the last couple of weeks, wounds that I had no…

The little mermaid

Some friends from back home sent me a care package last year. The package included a sweater, a Toy Story blanket, and a Disney mug with my zodiac sign, Aquarius. There’s a picture of Ariel, the Little Mermaid, on the front of the mug, and on the back of the mug is this quote: “There…

You have my full attention

Psalm 27:14 Wait for the Lord, be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. May Your presence be truer May Your presence be nearer Than all the others, than all the others And may Your light shine brighter And may Your love move deeper Than all the others, my God Than all the…

Fasting, praying, and Chinese parents

“God, You are so good to me. I know that You haven’t forgotten about my parents or my best friend. You desire to bring them into Your kingdom, and I ask that You show Yourself to them in all Your fullness. And I ask that You unveil my eyes as well, to maintain hope in…

Alabaster

It’s hard for me to explain how much God means to me to people who haven’t experienced Him. A lot of people imagine God to be this faraway being who no longer draws near to us as He did in the Bible. But His word tells us that He draws near to the brokenhearted; He…

You are good to me, good to me…

God has given me abundant joy in this time. I prayed for deliverance and hope, and He extends His hand to save me from the darkness. Today was the first day in a while that I actually felt joyful, and it was in the company of people who I admire and love so much. Their…

Hawaiian Breeze

My heart was heavy as I walked into my first large group of the summer this past Tuesday. We sang songs and heard a message from Chris about our value to God. There were conversations, laughs, inside jokes. I smiled along, prayed for some people, and left. I was mostly disappointed in the way I…

Patterns

I like to see repeating images and messages in what I read, small things that come together to highlight a greater theme. I started reading┬áThe Joy Luck Club by Amy Tan for the second time, and the anecdote about the mother and her swan seems to weave itself throughout all the stories. Although they’re all…

Man of Sorrows

Hillsong Live’s new album is already doing wonders for me. This song is one of those in the album that struck a chord in me from the very beginning. Isaiah 53:3-6 He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering. Like one from whom men hide their faces he…